seize the day

been an insomniac for days.

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yesterday, was the day of which i couldn't t stop whatsapp-ing with my bff. i just need that assurance.

"am i that bad in explaining things?"
"why?"
"penatlah nak mengajar.."
"why so sudden."
"idk what to do"
"sikit je lagi.."
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"kenapa actually ni,did the students give you a hard time?"
"no they didnt. rasa mcm masuk kelas tak explain pape pun"
"so what did you do kalau tak explain?"
"idk. i ask them to explain, ill explain more but based on their explanation. and experiment. and main and bagi buat soalan"
"okay lah tu. u dont have experience in teaching. u tried your best kan."
"i wanna get this over like now.."

have you ever feel like youre good for nothing and you just didnt do good enough?
and you feel like you can do better than what youve done for the day, but not in a positive way.
and you think you wont be able to make a difference pun? and...

you just feel awful.

okay i should stop this crap.

and sometimes, just a simple smile or text can somehow cheer you up.
received a morning greet from a friend, with just a simple wish, 'seize the day nsmg. goodnight(waktu uk)'

so dear self, can you at least put your smile on today? plus it isnt that bad pun kan sebenarnya?