temptations

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Ive always wanted to write something factual, or something yang ada 'isi'. But each time, therell always be something that holds me back. Am struggling with structuring contents, both written and verbal. is that an excuse? haha :P

Muqaddimah panjang sungguh. My point is, this wont be something factual. Warning. Im sure there are lots of writings regarding sacrifications done by either Nabi Ibrahim as, his wife, Hajar or Nabi Ismail as.

Today, in the world we live in, with so many -isms, it's even harder to actually practice Islam the way the assabiqun al-awwalun did.

Btw thats not supposed to be an excuse to not practice islam the right way, okay?

What im trying to say is, its difficult but possible. Its easy to get influenced by the mindset that everyones having. especially when youre the only person that think differently. hence that explains why we need support system. but, theres no point of having one when the person thats getting in the way is our own self.

To have desires, is human. How to channel them, thats islam.

Resisting temptations needs to come from within. Mann, that one IS hard. and, thats what we called sacrification.

It is hard, especially when the people around you are the reflection of who you were.
The desire to look nice, desire to own something good, etc etc. All those desires........... tak salah pun dalam islam. but they are, if we dont channel them the right way.

Hmm I still have a wish list that i still keep it all to myself. haha. and I still have that temptations and theyre somewhat inducing me especially this time around- the time which people around you ask you to do things the way everyone would do, and you have that temptations to actually do those, but your faith is the only thing that resisting you from doing them in such way. and thats the main reason you get stressed out easily. Stress dengan diri sendiri. *down lah camni

banyak fikir sangat kot. Hmm jm no angel.

and, because of this same thing, i feel like all i think about lately is just all about me. nak balik UK T___T

tapi sampai bilaaaaa nak camni nsmg?

okay, what i can say is, my definition of sacrification is so small that im still struggling with myself. but actually it can be a whole lot more than about one self, obviously.

ps: masa solat raya tadi, ada these two boys datang lambat. theyre siblings (one's age is around 11, and another is around 8). and they performed the eid prayer berjemaah, abangnya imam. awww.. sejuk perut ibu mengandung, nakk.